eclectica
2004-06-05, 05:44
the future of exploration lies not in the realm of the telescope or the microscope, but instead in the journey of self awareness. what holds us back from exploring our own selves are the taboos of society and the fear that we may discover in the process that we are actually monsters. having a dionysian will to life means accepting all of life's aspects, including the bad parts and the unpleasant things that we discover about ourselves.
the nicholas berg slaughter and execution video was fascinating to watch. i was both repulsed and intrigued by it. the horrors of the world are seductively beautiful. watch the arab dudes slaughtering nick berg and you get the sense that they are having some kind of orgasm or pleasure from the act.
you may think that sex is not related to violence or death but in fact they are all related to each other. when you fuck you are actually exploiting your sexual partner and treating your partner like a piece of raw meat. there's not much difference between stabbing and cutting a piece of meat and penetrating your partner.
i often feel guilty during sex because the pleasure is so one-sided. i feel guilty for penetrating and exploiting my sexual partner like a raw piece of meat. yet this guilt comes about because i have a difficulty in receiving gifts. i am so much used to giving that it is hard for me to find pleasure in receiving. the joy of sex comes ultimately from receiving, but it makes one feel better to know that one's sexual partner is also feeling pleasure. when both parties feel pleasure in sex it is coincidental. the ultimate pleasure from sex is actually selfish, and they are mutually exploiting and feasting upon each other.
the cycle of sex, violence, life, and death is all related. sex when done properly will involve some violence and exploitation. if one is too concerned about exploiting one's sexual partner then one will have trouble enjoying sex.
every orgasm is like a miniature death. orgasm brings us death and rebirth, and as a result sex itself gives us a feeling of godlike immortality.
the nicholas berg slaughter and execution video was fascinating to watch. i was both repulsed and intrigued by it. the horrors of the world are seductively beautiful. watch the arab dudes slaughtering nick berg and you get the sense that they are having some kind of orgasm or pleasure from the act.
you may think that sex is not related to violence or death but in fact they are all related to each other. when you fuck you are actually exploiting your sexual partner and treating your partner like a piece of raw meat. there's not much difference between stabbing and cutting a piece of meat and penetrating your partner.
i often feel guilty during sex because the pleasure is so one-sided. i feel guilty for penetrating and exploiting my sexual partner like a raw piece of meat. yet this guilt comes about because i have a difficulty in receiving gifts. i am so much used to giving that it is hard for me to find pleasure in receiving. the joy of sex comes ultimately from receiving, but it makes one feel better to know that one's sexual partner is also feeling pleasure. when both parties feel pleasure in sex it is coincidental. the ultimate pleasure from sex is actually selfish, and they are mutually exploiting and feasting upon each other.
the cycle of sex, violence, life, and death is all related. sex when done properly will involve some violence and exploitation. if one is too concerned about exploiting one's sexual partner then one will have trouble enjoying sex.
every orgasm is like a miniature death. orgasm brings us death and rebirth, and as a result sex itself gives us a feeling of godlike immortality.