Seeking Help

[tim]

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move along nothing to see here folks!

[Criminal_Sniper]

i have a feeling it was something i said
don't have to answer that though dude
i feel much happyness for ya :)
keep on going brother
like any discipline it is best done with compassion and mercy
u deserve as much as anyone but it is up to U to get it :p
good luck hey
talk to ya later sorry for having to go
kind of a sudden thing u know how it can be
anyway all im going out tonight :D

[Dollar_Girl]

i wouldn't rely too much on everything he says dude. Sometimes, like in the case you quoted, he is just plain ole' wrong.

[Criminal_Sniper]

i am much calmer right now
and well i do see a difference now
but it is much more bitter
(not overall i still love u like i love everyone else)
sorry $girl but u are not urself
what is the matter?
apart from everything?
and good u mentioned it
do NOT simply believe in what i believe
i am only learning & experiencing and u are all receptors for the frequencey if u turn on
i ask u only for u to listen to me
i will return the favour
u know i have a bright spark every now and then
would be like not eating chocolate

[slx]

you know I really should read these new posts in REVERSE order from oldest first to newest last..because often times someone starts off or out as being angry at me for something I said in an earlier post...but find some redeeming quality in a subsequent post so that by the time their last most newest or recent post is made on the forum their attitude toward me has soften or changed.why is just about you littledik....


me...me...me, always me...me...me

[Dollar_Girl]

you've made it about me..and you love it.

do you seriously see yourself leading a fulfilling life sometime in the future? I have just breifly thought about this today, while everybody is talking about wether or not they would allow you near their family. I figure your 40 years old, still a morbidly obese virgin living at home with his mum, suffereing from a severe delay in emotinal development due to your lack of sexual matuirty and absence of intimacy with either man or woman. What are the real chances of you getting a life? Right now your life consists of internet, M&m's, pornography and god. Though that is an interesting combination, it is hardly fullfilling. I don't see much change and positive development happening for you, and many times i think you will finish your life, without ever getting the opportunity to mature further by experiencing meaningful things that don't include your four basics, as i mentioned above.

I don't really ever see you having intimate sexual relations with someone who makes your heart skip beats (besides your already irregular heartbeat due to your cloged arteries)... knowing that you do the same for them...

or just looking up at the sky with someone you love and being fully content to be there in that single moment...

or having an argument with someone u love, and realising you didn't mean a single word of what u said, and then feeling a moment of desperation where all you want to do is look them in the eye and say you're sorry

I don't see you having children and being a good father, a mature father, a loving father, coz i see you as one gigantic fat kid yourself, who still doesn't know there is more to life than toys. Your ability to appreciate is muted.

maybe oneday when ur older, u will have a hilbilly girlfriend who has 15 rotted teeth, long armpit hair and a pierced clitoris, but i doubt it would be anything so spectacular that it would change your life. I doubt you will feel the joy and devestation that people go through in life, because of love and relationships. I doubt your perspectives on even the most simple things will ever evolve or change, because of new experiences, i doubt you will grow as a person (and i don't mean gain another pound) and become someone you can be proud of.

I doubt you will ever feel emotional devestation that brings you down to your knees, unless you dropped an m&m on the floor and it rolled out of your reach, and i doubt you will ever feel such a strong wave of intimacy or love, that you just forgot to breath because of the high.

I think nicobie is right. Male in 40's, obese, virigin, living at home with mum, no life ... you are definantly a rapist in the making. You are a clasic case.

In your case, the answer my friend, is NOT blowing in the wind, the answer is NOT blowing in the wind.

[slx]

suffereing from a severe delay in emotinal development & don't forget about physical development either girl....remember he's got a peckr like a beenyweeny....a littledik for sure

[Dollar_Girl]

goodnight..i hope you say it is alright for me to PM you (Dollar_Girl) and if you do say that it is I hope eclectica will unrestrict me...if you can influence him or slx to restore my edit and delete privileges that would be great too.

I think most of these restrictions are in place because of you...slx and eclectica and I got along fine during the six months when you weren't posting here from December to around May 30th of this year or so we were all great friends and one big happy family..when you started posting again that created devisiveness and strife among the male members here who were in competitions for you attention which to them it looks like I won..


i don't have any influence in regards to your status. Most decisions are made without me knowing.

i'm not interested in getting any personal messages from you. I'd also preffer you didn't email me either. As for your suggestion that i should change my email address if i don't want to hear from you again, it wont' happen. You're not that important.

[The Passion]

Seeking Helpyou sure you are not seeking attention? I can see how you might confuse the two...

[slx]

most of these restrictions are in place because of you...slx and eclectica wrong fats....i'm the only bad plug in your engine

i appointed myself your guardian angel tubbs.....how's that make you feel dude.....privileged, special.....


lol

[The Passion]

you should really spend a month and re-read all the posts you have made in the last 6 months or so, I can only imagine how horrid the emails will be. I didn't make the passion to hide, I was more curious as to see what this place was gonna be like. ec can change my name at will to sixxgunnz or anything he wishes to.

[slx]

you have no power save that which your master, eclectica gives to you. he holds ultimate responsibility for "your" actions.true...but your still pissin in the wind thinking you'll be set free

[Criminal_Sniper]

$girl u wrote this

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having an argument with someone u love, and realising you didn't mean a single word of what u said, and then feeling a moment of desperation where all you want to do is look them in the eye and say you're sorry
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why are there double standards when it comes to people?
because some people believe themselves to be better than people regardless
is Tim not allowed the same emotion that u seem to know so much about?

which are u?
wrong or just a double-standardizer (that not a word is it...)

ive lost so much respect for some people
so much dissapointment
u can say things that make me believe ur a pretty good person
but u really use it to make peace or make others believe u have it or u are
just not peacefull and seek nothing but unhappyness for all

the musketeers had it right
all for one and one for all

she may be nice n all but she is a messed up lil flower
u may have had some luck
bad things happen for better reasons

[Dollar_Girl]

$girl u wrote this

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having an argument with someone u love, and realising you didn't mean a single word of what u said, and then feeling a moment of desperation where all you want to do is look them in the eye and say you're sorry
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why are there double standards when it comes to people?
because some people believe themselves to be better than people regardless
is Tim not allowed the same emotion that u seem to know so much about?

which are u?
wrong or just a double-standardizer (that not a word is it...)

ive lost so much respect for some people
so much dissapointment
u can say things that make me believe ur a pretty good person
but u really use it to make peace or make others believe u have it or u are
just not peacefull and seek nothing but unhappyness for all

the musketeers had it right
all for one and one for all

she may be nice n all but she is a messed up lil flower
u may have had some luck
bad things happen for better reasons

there is a different between having an occasional argument wiht someone u love, and being a subject of constant stupid harrasment by a shitstain who is worth less than the grass residue on the botton of my shoes.

I think tim is a loser, a real loser. And i also think you attempt to make yourself look loving and wise and super understanding by quickly reading through posts, and then shooting out a summary with some abstract words of wisdom you feel may suit what has been said. Perhaps you think you are TIm's mum by always standing by him, offering your breast for him to drown his sorrows on. You are like his savior, always there for him. perhaps you just like the image or you like the notion of seeing 'good' in someone, when no-one else does. I don't know if you like the elevated feeling of that or whatever.

i was more than patient with little humpty over the past what... couple of years or whatever, jesus, what a waste of time that has been. Hey dude, i gave timothy my fair share of attention, but the guy is a moron, and there are much nicer people to devote your attention to.

just because you like him, doesn't mean i'm wrong for feeling neautral towards him. i couldn't care less if he dropped dead from heart failure or if he was stabbed repetitively through his lard and died.

Guess we just differ dude

[slx]

i also think you attempt to make yourself look loving and wise and super understanding by quickly reading through posts, and then shooting out a summary with some abstract words of wisdom you feel may suit what has been said. perhaps you just like the image or you like the notion of seeing 'good' in someone, when no-one else does. I don't know if you like the elevated feeling of that or whatever.a keen observation

[Criminal_Sniper]

ive lived the past
the past is the present
we learn now or later from experiences and mistakes which just happened

why can we not be one?

i do not see the difference between u and me on that one
perhaps just outlook and perception of it

i know where u are coming from $girl but it not u
if u are who u say u are

to say i feel good about being good and seeing good makes u seem like the devil almost

so is too nice and not nice some things u dislike in a person?
i give u my breast (not so big unfotunately) to sob on
i give limitless chances
u say u have but he is still not forgiven
thats the whole point of it all

and as i said i feel pain
emotional and physical
u are sad so am i
he is sad so am i

ever had tears for someone u never knew?
not felt the joy of true love have u $girl?

know that we have all been there before
if it was hard u know why if it were easy u know why

i WOULD give it all up for u
i am that kind of person
if u do not like me for it
i still care
i always care
i live in poverty because i help people
TOO MUCH?????

i think its for people who can not do or want to do any better
lowering the standard only makes the average drop

maybe i should read more posts back
but ive read this thread
what makes u the judge on that? sorry

grass residue?
no grass less animals less humans extinction
we are one as i said
everything can be linked
everything is changing
that why we have hope dreams and love

we know right from wrong that is all i try to understand
never claimed to have anything special $girl
some things some call burdens and i call the gifts

i LOVE u do not SEE it
or u REJECT it
does that make me bad just because u decide it?

and seeing good in someone who everyone else only sees bad in makes them feel better

u are fucking sadistic compared to me $girl

[Criminal_Sniper]

i would take a bigger beating than christ in the "The smashin" for the happyness of man
would u die for me?
i guess thats where we differ

am i stupid $girl? or do our opinions clash when u want to change them for convenience
u cannot have exceptions to ur own morals
Tim did love u
you did argue
he tried to say sorry but u started again and he fought back
now we are where we are
nice?

[slx]

i LOVE u do not SEE it
or u REJECT it$girl...i believe you're in heat

[Criminal_Sniper]

did i miss something
being good is suspicious in this world yes i know
but none other than it itself is needed for it to be true
do i gain something u do not from being nice?
is it unfair?
i can't see the problem

u misunderstood me slx
I said
I LOVE - u do not see it - or u reject it
that object shit again
u think everyone thinks like u so they must have the same motives

i think u think i wanna fuck $girl
not saying i wouldn't - im a hetro male for fucks sake
(-----something reminds me of dimona-------forget this)
but is that the only relationship we must have?
internet ralationships u should know my thoughts on that by now
Tim certainly does haha
im too shy anyway :p

i want to be greatest of friends with everyone i know
my pain is urs would i hurt u?
i dislike one thing greatly and thats misunderstanding
i love u all even nic :p
even though i dislike him in some ways
but i understand he is not complete
u never completely judge a drawing half sketched do u?
u get an idea of things to come
but within a moment it can be erased or made better
give it a chance

sadness and dissapointment is for the love given that is never returned or made to look bad
does noone love the world like me?
noone love just the moment they are in?
loving neither existence or non-existence?

from an A perfect circle song (maynard is a legend yes)
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look behind the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
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dosent mean much unless u think about it for a while or have an idea of it in ur head already

LOTS of LOVE Crim!!!! :D

[slx]

u misunderstood me slx
I said
I LOVE - u do not see it - or u reject it
that object shit again
u think everyone thinks like u so they must have the same motiveschill socrates.....it was a funny meant for $

[Criminal_Sniper]

yeah but i would have got in trouble
i do not like jokes at my expense no matter who they are aimed at
:)

[Dollar_Girl]

i do not like jokes at my expense no matter who they are aimed at
:)

that's funny dude. I've been the expense of Tim's lame jokes way too many times. At first i over looked them, then i let him know that i thought they were retarded like him, but said HEY... don't worry, i'm sure we will be buds over time again, but now, i really enjoy life without his stupid monologue chats about a half finished blow job from a prostitute, and i really enjoy not getting pm's asking if i will take his money for sex, and i really enjoy not having to read his stupid posts and emails incase i hurt his feelings. Now that i don't care about his feelings, i can tell him straight out that i feel sorry for him and his mother for giving birth to a gigantic retard like him, without feelig bad about it!

Criminal_sniper, you always praised honesty, well i'm finally honest about Tim. I dont' have to like it, and i don't have to consider his feelings. That doesn't make me a shit person, just makes me someoen who realised life is too short to put up with shit from idiots like him, and there are people out there, genuine good people who are in need of some attention too.

[Criminal_Sniper]

$girl thanks for the honesty much appreciated as always
i know exactly what ur saying and u have some reason to believe what u do

but im pleading
*on my knees*
love others lower than u because u were once there
who gave u a shoulder to cry on? someone higher than urself at the time
and are u the standard?
if i were better than u would i not help u regardless?

when we decide who needs our love and help and kindness we forget to give to those we love most

as i ask people to accept me for who i am and love me and the rest can be worked out later
and it will, in harmony i trust :)

[slx]

what...about any of this is honest?

retarded
stupid monologue chats
stupid posts and emails
a gigantic retard
idiots like him

[Dollar_Girl]

retarded
stupid monologue chats
stupid posts and emails
a gigantic retard
idiots like him

dude, i'd be so lost without u :hippie:

[Criminal_Sniper]

honesty in my eyes all humans are patheticly misunderstanding and deluded
some believe things to be truth
some see interpretations and facts
ortho or proto

just because u do not have the compassion as acceptance of people makes u wrong
accept people for who they could be looking for positive and negative

[Dollar_Girl]

$girl thanks for the honesty much appreciated as always
i know exactly what ur saying and u have some reason to believe what u do

but im pleading
*on my knees*
love others lower than u because u were once there
who gave u a shoulder to cry on? someone higher than urself at the time
and are u the standard?
if i were better than u would i not help u regardless?

when we decide who needs our love and help and kindness we forget to give to those we love most

as i ask people to accept me for who i am and love me and the rest can be worked out later
and it will, in harmony i trust :)

dude, you use the word 'love' loosely.
Let's love hitler, lets love GWB, lets love jesus, lets love the republicans, lets love the democrats, love your mother, your step mother, your god mother, ur grandmother, love your dog, your cat, your neighbour, love alah love buddha...

our whole lives we're told who to love, we're told to love everyone. Campaigns go on around us ALL THE TMIE to win our LOVE and dedication to organisations, companies, religions, political parties...

i'm loyal to my family, i know those who i love, as for everyone else... even if i liked you once, but if you CHOSE to fuck me over for shits and giggles... i owe nothing to that person, and i can change my mind and say hey man, fuck you, you ain't worth it anyway. I choose to not respect and not give a shit about TIM. He's lame.

Don't try to convince me of some global love dude... i've been in that phase, i've been in that dream, and then i realise... there are too many people out there trying to convince us with words...

[eclectica]

love others lower than u because u were once there
who gave u a shoulder to cry on? someone higher than urself at the time
and are u the standard?
if i were better than u would i not help u regardless?

when we decide who needs our love and help and kindness we forget to give to those we love most

Unconditional and undiscriminating love has no value.

We must budget our love and our acts of kindness, for there is not an infinite amount of it in us mortals.

Christianity has caused damage to the free spirit of men by encouraging the love of enemies.

Giving kindness to those who don't deserve it is an injustice. Justice involves both the olive branch and the sword, but it seems you have overlooked the sword.

Overcoming the enslaving chains of Christianity or whatever philosophy makes you disdain anger, would allow you the satisfaction of picking up a sword and beheading your enemies.

If one loves goodness then one must be willing to fight against evil.

[slx]

socrates' in some other place....far far away from reality

[Criminal_Sniper]

funny E that unconditional and indiscriminate hatred runs so deep in this world

and that does not cause major things?

do not claim what u do not know

i love because i feel i must
u can all go on hating

as i said u cannot choose to be nice
u are not really being nice ur being selfish
it becomes temporary
love to me if true is everlasting

love is infinite

E ur philosophy and most people is the one that makes pot smokers hard criminals

the sword is a joke

that cycle has been continuing for a long time

justice is what when there is mercy?

they say keep ur friends close but keep ur enemies closer
why is that?
they see ur own problems
u may help them on thier problems

u do not have to talk to someone if they are rude and arrogant if u are difficult in dealing with those things

i believe in using the sword for defence

but one day would we need it if all thought that way?
no way

maybe im just a useless fucker who wants some peace in this world and will do anything within reason to get it

christianity has some amazing things in it
ive always said nice story bad God

AND our main enemies are ourselves
we are the cause of everything that happens to us
if u cannot love urself than who can?

[Criminal_Sniper]

reality slx? something u alone know about?

some good quotes

He who lives by fighting with an enemy has an interest in the preservation of the enemy's life. - Friedrich Nietzsche

One reason we should love our enemies is that we made them ourselves. Another reason is that they keep us on our toes, a third reason is that we should make them our friends. - Source Unknown

[Criminal_Sniper]

words $girl
are part of it
if ones words are not true u cannot trust them
u can always pick a bad liar when u know them

anyone who asks for love is bullshit
once recieved there is no need for them to ask for a return of the favour

i love all of them
but i see thier problems
some people have bad motivations

do not forget that not everyone knows right from wrong
that may include u! and me :p

[Criminal_Sniper]

my shadows sheddin skin
change is comin
through my shadow
now who's time is it?